I feel as though I’ve been “away” for ages. ;) There hasn’t been time or energy lately to even touch mail or LJ, so if I’ve been out of touch, I apologise.
Well, the soft launch has gone positively marshmallow, due to ongoing problems. Some are due to the crappy software, some due to my boss’ (bosses’?) panicked last-minute changes, some of it is due to just general fuckups and fate.
I have to go to New York this month for discussions on the launch of the US site. I told my boss that I wanted to combine that with my trip to visit my family, and go from NY to California, then home. He got very sniffy and said “I don’t think this is a good time for you to be gone right now – I need you on board right now.” I lost it. I pulled him to one side of the meeting we were in and reminded that I’ve put this trip off for months and months, my mother is very ill, and then I told him about my daughter’s recent problems and said that one way or another, whatever it took, I was going. Then I started to cry. I hate that I cannot have this kind of confrontation with someone without getting overemotional. I’m fine as long as it’s on a purely professional level, but having to discuss personal problems with a virtual stranger does me in. Anyway, he was contrite (for him, anyway – he’s not the fuzziest of people), and said that yes, I could take maybe five days to go to California, but then I would have to go back to finish things up in NY. And I would have to take a laptop and be available. Jesus.
Phil and I barely talk; he’s busy with his own plans, and I feel hurt and lonely. Part of it is stress, yes, but there is something else. I suppose this time that I will be gone will sort things out…it’s just sad that we’ve come to this place in our relationship.
Well, I’m off to get dressed. Normally by now I would be on the road so I could be at work at seven am, but I’m taking the car in finally to have the brakes done. Crashing into a stone wall would solve all of the problems, yes, but it’s not an optimal way of doing so. ;)
On a happier note, it’s been actually HOT here. I love it. Some day I’ll live in Portugal or somewhere hot and sunny. I’m suited for that kind of weather. *sigh* Oh, visions of beaches and cool drinks…soon. :)