No, not that kind of faking it.
Does anyone ever really feel like a grown-up? Or do you ever feel as though you’re still a kid, masquerading in a grown-up’s world? I very much felt like that yesterday: sitting in meetings with the suits and techie wizards from the e-commerce solution company, setting out project timelines, agreeing to things that will affect a very old, prestigious company without an outward qualm. Does anyone ever feel totally in control? Sometimes I feel like a little girl playing dressup, wearing her mother’s suit and pearls. (Not that my mother had suits – she was a stay-at-home mom. But you know what I mean.)
The timelines until go-live date are VERY tight. There is no normal 20% padding for unforseen glitches. And I need to complete my part, the database of product info, content, and images for import, and all of the multitude of JSP templates for all of the pages, in shorter time than allowed to give some extra time to areas where we will probably experience glitches. Yikes!
On the other hand, I got my first payslip, as I mentioned. Not only was it for a full month, rather than the two weeks that I had actually been there, but it was for more money. Either they made a mistake, or I am being paid more than agreed. Either way, it works for me. At least until we pay off a few things. ;)