I haven’t posted in a long time, I know.
Most people who read this blog (all three of you) know that I’ve struggled with depression off and on for a long time. For always, to be perfectly honest. And this year it has been extremely bad. I don’t show it, except perhaps to the people who know me best – but it has been rough.
I lost my mother early this year, and my dad is presently struggling with cancer. He goes in for surgery (unless he decides at the last minute not to go through with any of it) tomorrow. My daughter and I spent a large part of this year completely estranged from each other. The economy and job market is depressingly bad, and recently someone was just hired in my job. Without any discussion, all duties and responsibilities just taken away, leaving me to drift like a ghost. (My fault, I suppose, for not being able to grow a penis.) It’s not been the best year ever, I have to admit.
And yet…everything isn’t entirely hopeless. I’m working at making new business ventures a reality, and trying to remake my life. So, not much fun and games, and little to write about that isn’t depressing, but there are some bright spots on occasion.
There is no night without at least a touch of light…and daybreak always comes.