I’m feeling a bit better now. Went for a walk at lunch, bought some ibuprophen for this vicious headache, and cooled out a bit.
I hate being so angry. There is so much that is beyond my control: the job, my official documentation, the situation with Phil. I get angry, and that is such a destructive and corrosive emotion. It’s tough to release it, though. I feel like an animal caught in a trap, gnawing at my leg, trying to release myself.
Sorry for this blog being so negative; it’s just not a great time right now.